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Tuesday, November 18th, 2003

Subject:one more chance
Time:9:30 pm.
anyone who wants to be added to my new journal let me know.
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Sunday, November 16th, 2003

Subject:Canada egh? (read and give me your input. sorry its long)
Time:8:56 pm.
I went to Canada last night with Tara. We went early so that we could eat dinner. We went to the Honest Lawyer. Its our favorite place. We shared a bowl of onion soup and a plate of garlic cheese bread. It was really good but filling.

A bunch of guys came and sat with us. They were creepy though so we had Ryan find another table for them. One of the guys yelled at me for not just telling him that i wanted him to leave instead of having Ryan do it. So they left.

We sat for a bit by ourselves when another person came up to us and asked if they could share our booth because there was nowhere to sit. We let him because he seemed okay and he only had two other people with him. The other guy that had come over after we said they could sit there was cute. He ended up buying a round of drinks for us.

The other two people were a girl and a guy. The guys were talking to themselves so i started talking to the girl. she was really nice. We were just talking about bullshit when she told me that the cute guy was the manager at Dante's. Then it hit me. I pointed at him and i said i knew you looked familiar. Then i explained about how i lost my ID and asked one of the bouncers to let me in and he wouldn't so i asked him (Erik) to let me in. He had said it was up to the bouncer and the bouncer looked at me and said i wasn't getting in and to leave. Erik told me that was his roommate and that he is an ass hole like that. I couldn't believe it.

Tara was mad because some girl got a rose because it was her birthday and Ryan had not given her one. So later when i saw the rose lady i got up and bought one and gave it to Ryan to give to her. but he already was getting her some. later he brought over two roses for her and one from me. but then i decided to make a smooth move so i took back the one that i had bought and smelled it then put it on the table facing Erik. i got his attention and pointed to the rose. he looked at me surprisingly and asked if it was for him. i said yes. then before anything else was said tara decided we had to go to the bathroom because she wanted to talk about the Ryan thing. it was sooooo cute. he is the sweetest guy.

So we come back from the bathroom. Tara was getting in the booth when i noticed Erik calling me over. I went over to him and he stood up and gave me a hug, a kiss on the cheek and said thank you for the rose. it was so cute. he is awesome.

I went back over to sit next to tara but after a while i decided to go sit by Erik because i was going to make a move. so i chilled over there and talked for a while. his friends are really cool too and we ended up laughing all night long. not to mention we were all butt ass drunk. me and Erik started getting really close. if he said anything to me he would put his head towards me.

Somehow we started talking about how we are going to play this game. He wanted me to come and find him again. I told him that i knew where we work. he said he knew where i was too. i argued that he didn't. again he said i was to find him.

At one point i told him i wasn't into one night stands and i found out that he does not like anal sex which is 100 points because i would never do that and i hate when guys want to do it.

Finally i realized it was getting late so i looked at Erik's watch and it said 2:15. that sucked. So i decided it was time. i asked him if he had a girlfriend even though i knew he didn't and he said that he wouldn't be doing something...i dont remember but it had to do with me...if he did. so then i asked him if he would mind if i kissed him and he said no that shouldn't be a problem. I lean in and he puts his cheek out at me and gives me that look. i pull away and he laughs and leans in and kisses me. i was in heaven. i thought i would going to fall over. he is soooooo cute. then he pulled away and turned to everyone and said that the game was on. i almost fell over laughing. i like games :)

Everyone decided it was time to go so we all got up to leave. Erik gave me another hug and a kiss. Then we left.

So now i have a question. What do you think my odds are. he could have tried to get with me that night but he didn't. he wants me to find him. my thought is that he meets a lot of girls because he is the manager of a club and that not many of them would even bother to come back again to see him. so i think that might be why he said that. or he is just not interested. so what do you guys think? i know he lives in Canada and i live in Michigan but who knows. anything can happen. give me your advice please.
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Sunday, November 9th, 2003

Subject:New Journal!!!
Time:9:20 pm.
hey everyone...i have a new journal. i dont think i will be writing in this one anymore. i needed a change. if you love me then reply to this and i will give you the new journal name :)
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Sunday, November 2nd, 2003

Time:1:53 pm.
i am in the best mood ever...and i have no idea why. after last night anyone would think i would be in a bad mood but im not at all. im actually happy that last night happened the way it did. because if it happened how i wanted to and i had to hang out with those people one more time i think i might have killed myself. they are so fake to me and i am so fake to them that its sickening. its so nice to be alone right now. no jackie(even though i love her), no stupid boys, no nagging parants. its beautiful. im actually happy for jackie. i dont like who she is with but she is happy so its all good. and amy has her husband and kids. they are so cute. im glad i dont have anyone though because i can get attention from any guy i want and if that makes me a slut then frankly my dear i dont give a damn. hehe its all good.

so far today i got up and had breakfast with my parents....scary right? thats what kind of mood im in. and then came home. they left. i cleaned my turtle tank and my room and now im going to take a shower and make some pizza and then watch a movie. hopefully i do some homework later...im so bad at that. oh well.....off i go!
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Saturday, November 1st, 2003

Time:7:17 pm.
so heres the deal...im supposed to be doing something tonight and jackie was supposed to come with me. but shes not now because she decided to be with dave instead. she knows im mad already so it doesnt really matter. it just sux that we hung out every day and now its whenever she isnt with dave or at anthonys or out with brian. its funny that i introduced her to them too. i cant stand hanging out with them so its my fault. if i hung out with them she would hang out with me. but i cants stand them so im not going to deal with that. if she wanted to hang out with me she would. sux for me. oh well....ive got a couple of hours...i think i will take a shower and eat some food.
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Thursday, October 30th, 2003

Time:8:22 pm.
okay....so i guess ill update. i was sick a couple of weeks ago. my doctor put me on the z-pack. it worked well. havent been doing much of anything. hung out with joe sunday i think. we watched a movie. it was pretty good. been fighting on and off with andrea.

poor mam is in the hospital. i cant believe it. i thought she was doing good. who knows when frank will be back. she needs him though so its all good. ill be mad if he comes to work tomorrow....he needs to be with her. im proabbly going to send her flowers when i get paid tomorrow. we have hardly any work. amy said she was going to show me how to make tracks. yey.

went to the hockey game today. it was all good. we won 9-0. joe is supposed to give me a call later. i was supposed to go to jays house for a party but i dont feel like it. its to far away and im tired. im wearing myself out. it sux. oh well. its almost the weekend. dont have any plans becides passing out candy on friday. maybe ill got the nates party. ill msg him maybe later....see whats up.

got some stuff to talk about with brandon tomorrow at work. hehe i love causing trouble. this ought to be interesting.

bill....im sorry i havent called. i havent been doing so well lately...some shit went down. i think it would be best if we were just friends. you seem to be doing well with others and im just not ready for anything. sorry.
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Sunday, October 26th, 2003

Time:2:06 pm.
i had the worst night last night. went to andreas party. we got along for a while i thought but she got upset at the end of the party. i tried to find out what was wrong but she wouldnt talk about it. it was about me though. i dont know what i did wrong. i was just hanging out. i didnt even really talk to anyone. and i stayed as far away from mike as i could....not that he talked to me either. he didnt even bring another girl. i must have done something wrong. after the party i didnt get far before i turned around and went back to see how she was. she was already asleep though. so i left. jackie called her today and talked to her then handed the phone to me. i asked her how i was and then told her about something that a friend of hers did to me that really upset me and she didnt even care. then i hand the phone back to jackie and she says to jackie never to hand the phone to me without giving her warning. i dont know what i did to upset her this time. i played by her rules. i barely even talked to matt too because i didnt know if that would upset her. i give up. i tried and got nowhere. she hates me for everything. i cant believe she was so mean to me after i tried to be a friend to her. at least i tried. i even bought matt two presents...a gag gift and a real gift. it wasnt the greatest thing but i dont know what matt really likes or doesnt like. i cant believe how shitty the night was. mike didnt make it better. i wasnt expecting anything from him but what he did later...i dont even want to talk about it. im so imbaresed about it. no one has ever made me feel as trashy as he did when i heard that voice msg from his friend. i cant stop crying about it. i want to go to sleep and never wake up again. i dont want to talk to anyone again thats how upset i am. i feel like such a peice of trash.
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Monday, October 20th, 2003

Time:9:45 pm.
well....what an interesting sat/sun i had. i was having a crappy day and night and was board so i went for a drive. i was on 696 when i saw a blue neon. it ended up being joe and brian. so i waved to them but that was that. i dont know where they were going. probably brents. then andrea text msged me and asked if i wanted to get something pierced. so i ended up at 12 and gratiot at inkslingers. i got my tounge pierced. i love it. its a little tender but it doesnt hurt. i ended up hanging out with andrea afterwards. we went to her place where matts dog bit me...lovely. then we headed to mikes place. mike is the guy who pierced my tounge. he is cute. he's not looking for a relationship though so that sux. but none the less we all hung out and we hit it off. it was all good.
sunday mike started matts tattoo. i want to get a tattoo also. i didnt come home till 12:30 sunday night/monday morning. it was a fun weekend.

i told my mom about my piercing. she isnt happy and im sure mark is going to scream at me. oh well. i like it and there is nothing they can do about it. at least i didnt come home with my eyebrow or my nose pierced.

we got our first orders of empire for our cell shades at work. 16. it doesnt sound like a lot but it is. they have only had the samples since friday. jeez we are going to be busy.
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Saturday, October 18th, 2003

Time:7:00 pm.
well thought i would update. im bored. sitting at home. should be doing homework...im lazy though. dont know what is going on tonight. probably nothing. ill sit at home and clean. i need to do that too.

went to city last night with tara. i havent been there in....a while. went to see bill. it was nice seeing him again. im not sure what to do about the situation though. Bill is everything i should want. but im not sure. i guess ill jsut have to wait it out and see what happens.

im a trouble maker at work. we hand no work at all on friday. it was horrible. everyone was jsut standing around. i made about 50 tilt cords but i thought i might go insane so i stopped after that. everyone took lunch at the same time. that was interesting. we all get along so well...if shelly would just keep her mouth shut that is....grrrr to her. talked to brandon alot. he caused me to get yelled at by one of the slowest guys that works there. i was punching slats and i went to drill the bottom rail and brandon started talking to me and wouldnt stop. next thing i know larry is there telling me to hurry up. i was like...oops my bad. lol its funny though.

dont know really what else to say. nothing going on at all. im tired and want to go back to sleep but its 7pm and that would suck. im watching my brother so i cant escape right now. where is jackie?
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Time:6:47 pm.
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Sunday, October 5th, 2003

Time:10:10 pm.
i am boy crazy. i need to calm down. none of it is serious though. boys are dumb lol

joe and me had a huge talk last night. i think everything is okay now between us. we are cool. im not sure what exactly is going on and its going to be weird for a while but its all good i think.

havent talk to jon. dont think i will. im not to bumbed...or at least thats what im telling myself. oh well.

on the bright side of things i talked to bill tonight. havent talk to him in a few months. we are going to hang out so its all good. yey :)

dont want to go to work tomorrow.

went to jays last night for the fight. all of "the crew" was there....so i didnt talk to a lot of people lol. it was fun though. i didnt go to sleep till 8:30am. oops. oh well. jays g/f who i dont know how to spell her name because i am dumb was sick so she went to bed early. i gave jay a long massage. i like giving massages. i got so used to giving them with joe. i gave brian one for a few minutes but then he starts thinking about trying to get with me and that is no good at all. ewwwww. so i try to stay away from him. jay was cool though. he almost fell asleep. joe got mad that i didnt give him one. thats why we ended up having that long talk.

it was a good night i say. i came home at 4:30 and fell asleep.
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Sunday, September 28th, 2003

Subject:its been awhile....
Time:11:43 pm.
well nothing to new i guess. classes just started a little while ago. im already feeling the slack. i dont what to do anything but im forcing myself to because i need to get good grades so i can go to college in florida.

work is okay. nothing really great about it.....speaking of which though....

i kinda got the hots for a guy at work. i really dont know what i think about it but ive been hitting on him hard core. everyone is rooting for me to sleep with this guy because...cough...cough.....he has a g/f that no one likes. but i dont know if its just about the sex. that all im alowing myself to think about though at the moment. i guess its just a game to keep me occupied.

as for the joe update....its over. my choice. he wasnts me real bad and is calling me and wanted to see me. he doesnt even look the same to me anymore. i just cant do it. i could have sex with him but i dont want him going on thinking i like him when my feelings have dried up. i do still care for him though. i would still be there for him but i know once he realizes its over i probably wont talk to him very much anymore. its all good though...its probably for the best.

so the reason that i dont have feelings for joe anymore....jon. which is a big mistake and i know it. but at least he got me over joe. i need to talk to jon because i can already tell that this is going to be no good so i want to get our feelings out in the open so i can walk away now. ive known jon for 3 years. it was lust at first sight. we stopped talking but a few months ago i called him up out of the blue. the only problem is that he is still seeing the same girl he was 3 years ago. but because i like a chalenge i didnt back down. stuff has happened between us...i have no will power....but nothing to dramatic. i wont have sex with him and i still have to tell him but i havent had the chance. im not sure what is going on but i want to protect myself from getting hurt. i like him alot though and have but im not going to try and take him away from his g.f. i dont want him to still want he if he was with me. but i doubt anything is even going to happen. its jsut a feeling. so im not really conserning myself with it right at this moment.

thats about it for the guy thing i guess. men are pigs.

im talking to my cousin chad right now. he lives in florida. i havent talk to him in a while so this is nice.

i moved home two weeks ago. i can finally save up some money hopefully...as long as my side mirrors stop falling off right jackie? lol
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Monday, June 16th, 2003

Time:7:08 pm.
went to city on sat. wanted to go fri too but fell asleep. i didnt see bill there. unusual. hope everything is okay. i did see spider there though. i was happy. i havent seen him since the whole johnny thing. so its all good. i gave him my # and told him to give me a call so thats cool.

work sucked ass. i had to do 7 cell shades all by myself today. i about died. it took me all day. im so tired.

that is all.
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Saturday, June 7th, 2003

Time:11:01 pm.
havent been able to write lately. i moved on tue. so i worked and unpacked for a couple of days. then i have just been hanging out and working. today was my last day at pet supplies plus. i start my new job on monday. so its all good. it was sad. they threw me a pizza party and stuff. ill have to visit often because i will miss it but not enough to want to work there again. i cant stand it anymore. oh well. went to city club last night. that was....interesting. i dont think bill is very cool with me anymore because of the shit that went down but oh well. my own fault. but everything is cool with everyone else at city so its all good. thats about it i guess. ill update later.
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Sunday, June 1st, 2003

Time:11:11 pm.
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Time:6:12 pm.
i would like to say i am sorry. you know who you are. i would never try and break them up. yes i like him and yes in the begining i would have liked to be able to hook up with him. but i respect him and his relationship. i know you are looking out for him and her which is great but if you have a problem come to me about it. i want to get this cleared up so there are no harsh feeling about the whole misunderstanding. he is a nice guy and like being friends with him and i like his g.f who i have met a few times. so again i am sorry.
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Friday, May 30th, 2003

Time:5:12 pm.
anyone going to city tonight? ill be ther ein my black dress thing that buttons up the front and has a short skirt. the kind that you dont want to bend over in unless you want to show eveyone what kind of underwear(if any) your wearing
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Thursday, May 29th, 2003

Time:9:16 pm.
just got back from taking some stuff over to cats place. im so excited about moving. me and jackie stayed at chated for a while but cat was sick because she got her wisdom teeth pulled out. so we didnt stay to long. less then a week...tue is the day. yey!
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Wednesday, May 28th, 2003

Time:10:51 pm.
not much to really talk about. thought i would just make a quick update. im about to take a shower.

i worked this morning and i have to work again tomorrow morning. only 1 1/2 weeks left! yey. i cant wait to start my new job. this one sux ass.

i guess thats about it. it needs to be friday. space then city yey!
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